Let me introduce myself in HAALF. Well I am SITI AISYAH BTE AZIZ aka aeisHa`B.
Whats with the B babe?
Is it for 'Baby'?
WTH.
Hell no.
But it was what my mum call me at home and some of my friends cause they thought that I am the smallest one and why not baby for me.
But my intention was not that.
B actually stands for Bakthar.
My surname.
It was not really use by the family as my grandad doesn't wants it.
So you've guessed it.
I am an arabian girl but I dont look like one.
Some people thought that I was actully chinese.
WAH LAO WEY.
hhahahhhaha.
I am soooo not ok!
I got Japanese encestors thou.
I am just sharing.
Sometimes I like to do or wear what other dont wear.
I like to be different.
I will be very random with my questions just to start a convo with someone.
If I dont wanna talk to anyone it really means that I do not want to.
I like to hide things to myself which is very very dangerous.
It seems to me that what ever that I face is between me and that thing or person.
Others who are not involve are safe with thier state of not knowing and would not want to add on to thier difficulties in life.
If I tell or share what they can do is to listen to me and give advise thats all.
Miracle wont happen. Unless I pray to GOD for help.
That is one thing that I believe and hold on to the princip the most.
If there is UP there will always be DOWN.
If theres DOWN there will always be UP.
All I want is thier prayers thats all.
Sometimes I feel like I wanna wake up in someone elses body and lead a simple life without difficult uneccesary choices that I had to make in that life.
I know I should be receiving what is being given to me and make full use of it to lead my life till I die.
Easy said than DONE people.
HAALF have made me find my new torch to light up my day.
Even if I am sad, I cant seem to show to them cause in my mind and heart I tell myself "When I am with them I have to spent my happiness with them and not sadness cause if not there wont be any other time for that."
GOD wanted to test me as HE knows that I can handle it.
That is the reason why I dont wanna make others be in my situation cause it is not their duty or responsibility to handle that problem for me.
I have to go through it myself.
I am not trying to be emotional here but it is just that when I am sad of down with alot of mix feelings, it is better for me to type down rather than wasting my breath to talk or even throw my tentrums to others or even myself.
I was thinking of doing something different to myself such as HIGHLIGHTING my hair with colours that are like blondish white and also do some draglocks to have a signature of my own.
Thats only what I think of but will never happen.
To look through my background and lifestyle it will be an impossible mission for me to achieve as it is like to far fetch and it is agains some of the ground rules that I have live by.
I might be ambitious in some ways but i definitely have to consider some factors will then limit my dreams to go for extreme stuff.



thegirlwhowantsto'grow',
aeisHa`B

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